New friends, new school, better subjects, better life.
When I was young, all I could think of was going to college.
I kept thinking:
"Wow those parties!" and "I'm gonna have so many friends"
Now, I'm left with nothing.
I have no friends at all.
I sit alone in every class, I eat alone at lunch, and nobody talks to me.
There are times where I go through a day without talking to anyone.
The only people I talk to are my online friends.
I envy my block mates;
They look so happy while I'm stuck in the back of the class writing poems to soothe my sorrow.
I come home to nothing and no one but myself,
Alone, typing away in the darkness.
As if that wasn't enough.
My grades are bad too.
Being a music student, trying to learn all these advance things
While dealing with the everyday sorrow is not easy.
People would often discriminate that fact and say:
"Just get over it" and " No, no! Just do it" and "Stop being such a baby"
I wish they were in my position.
So to all those who say college is/was awesome for you,
All I can say is lucky you.
And as for the people who are like me and feel my pain,
I sympathize with you my friend.
As for those who ridicule my depression,
I say "Hang College!"
You can take all your lies and keep them.
Thanks for crushing all my expectations as well as my dreams.
Thanks a lot.