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I'd rather be aloneI enter the room all eyes on me.
Side way glances as if I don't see.
I walk down the aisle and I take my seat.
This is where I'm gonna be for five days this week.
I can feel their hate from across the hall.
Those people they hate me and wish I would fall.
Unwanted is what they have always shown.
And honestly, I would rather be alone.
They tease me with their words as if it don't hurt.
They treat me as if I'm disgusting and dirt.
And sometimes I would just let it slide.
I would try to contain the feelings I hide.
I try to do my best but I really just fail.
And spectators would make up a new winding tale,
Of how my bad attitude is set into stone
But will never know I'd rather be alone.
Maybe I have done something out of range.
But I'm trying my best to be nice and change.
They say that will never for they've never known,
That I often sit and think "I'd rather be alone".
Instead of being teased an being rejected,
Instead being humiliated in public and subjected.
In order that I may no lon
Would you?"Hey, is what they say true?"
It's not like I haven't heard that before.
I stare, look intently at you
And you don't ask anymore.
It feels like you're drifting away
But I'm not surprised at all.
We don't say the things we used to say
Because you don't even call.
I'm just waiting for you to reach out.
Your voice is being drowned out in the crowd.
I don't want to be kept apart
But it doesn't feel like it's breaking your heart.
You've got a firm grip on my hand,
At least that's what I've heard.
The hourglass is running out of sand.
I'm just tired of being absurd.
Maybe I can try to fade slowly away...
Would you even care if I would go away?
You're not the only oneYou're not the only one who feels sad and wants to cry.
You're not the only one who wishes to die.
You're not the only one who feels broken and depressed.
You're not the only one who's threatened and oppressed.
You're not the only one who gets bad mouthed and bruised.
You're not the only one lied to and used.
You're not the only one who's got to be understood.
You're not the only who tries so hard to be good.
You're not the only one who strives hard and dreams.
You're not the only one who wakes up to your screams.
You're not the only one who feels really worn out.
You're not the only one, that I know without a doubt.
I also have dreams
I also wake up to screams
I also have want happiness
I also feel very depressed
You're acting like you're the only one who feels the way you do
But you don't realize that I feel the same way too.
Wide AwakeI'm wide awake.
I can't believe that I
Let you control my life,
I didn't even fight.
I'm wide awake.
How could I have been so blind?
I'm wide awake.
And now I'm letting go.
Now I really know
I shouldn't be this low.
I'm wide awake.
I'm gonna really say good-bye.
I shouldn't have done
What I have done.
I have to accept you're finally gone.
I know that it hurts
And it's so bitter-sweet.
But you let me fall on the concrete.
You left me here die
But I'm now I'm letting you go .
Your love was just a lie.
Now I know what I know.
I'm saying my good-bye.
I just reaped what I sow.
And so this is this the end.
I'm gonna write again.
Sailor BoldTo where my sailor goes,
To where he stops to breathe.
Thou fairest maid I know
You'll put his mind at ease.
To yonder I wilt go,
Through the tempest of the sea.
I shall wonder, weep and moan
Until thou art with me.
My sailor true and fair,
My heart belongs to thee.
Thou wilt forevermair
Plow trough the raging sea.
For glory, God and gold
Thou hast for surely come.
Thou art steadfast and bold
Wilt fight until we've won.
Oh sailor, sailor dear
I long for nae but this:
To cast away all fears
And conquer this abyss.
Until thou hast returned
I shall wait eternally.
Even death that is foretold
Wilt not halt my love for thee.
InvisibleMay the feeling I have for you keep me alive
Cause you might not know it but I'm dying inside
And everyday I long for you here
It hurts when I think of you, I still have this fear
Your eyes they speak the love that you feel
And even though it's not it feels just as real
People will be PeoplePeople will be people
No matter how big or small.
We make mistakes,
We bake cakes,
We stumble and we fall.
We all have weaknesses,
And we all have strengths.
Sometimes we get confused.
We are all mortal,
Some of us play portal,
We all get broken and bruised.
We mourn on deaths,
We have regrets,
We celebrate special days.
We work to live,
We live to die,
We all have our own ways.
No matter where we go I know,
It doesn't matter why
And in the end we'll always be,
People by and by.
Good-byeI wish you all the best
More precious than the rest
Somewhere in the road we met
No matter where you go
Be happy and always know
I will love you still 'till it all ends
The past is history
So I look to tomorrow
There's no use to stay in misery
And now I have to go
I'll miss you all the way
I won't forget the day that I first talked to you
I know right now I'm feeling blue
But I'll get over you
And 'till the end you'll stay
The person by the bay who said "hello"
And now it's time to say good-bye
I'm going my separate way
You're happy with her now
And I can't help but frown
Teach me how to forget you
Because even though I go
I'm sure you and I both know
That you're still on my mind
I'm trying to act fine
In every moment of the past
Precious memories will last
As long as they're remembered
AS good as all ember
Now the journey ends
And I can't go back again
Eyes on mePeople are watching every move that I make.
I must blindly obey for much is at stake.
Watched and controlled like a puppet on strings.
Of course, they don't know how it hurts and it stings.
Everyone's eyes are directed at me.
Just like a show for everyone to see.
Watched with pre-caution and told to be "good".
They say it's because I should act like I should.
I play the act, my part, take my place
And get ready for the crowd that I know I must face.
Some cheer, some scorn, some shed bitter tears.
But they'll never know my secret fears.
I don't know why this thing has to be.
But all I know is that their eyes are on me.
LoveIt doesn't come easy
It doesn't come quick
It can make you feel happy
Or make you feel sick
It can make you feel powerful
It can make you feel "hip"
But can also make you fall
And make you lose your grip
When you meet him, you wait for the words
The words you hope are true
When he kisses your lips and tenderly says
"I'll always love only you"
Innocence (73)Tired of mumbling when they mention your name-
Desperate, longing, to simply be sane.
Want to be free, to dance with the wind
No longer thinking what we had was sin.
Used to be open, carefree and young
Long before we knew how love truly stung.
Now so broken with patches and scars,
Thinking this plan has never been ours.
Sure there's a reason for every small tear,
But gratitude is something you will not find here.
Give it some time, let memories build up
Don't think about all the days now corrupt.
Oh to be innocent like I once was,
To answer my questions with words like "Because"
Without having to worry about things in the past...
Not really wondering how long we would last.
What if I don't believe this bullshit?Baby...
May I ask you something?
If I told you of my secrets, my worries
wouldn't you listen, wouldn't you help me?
If I hugged you tight and never wanted to let go
would you seriously look at me with disgrace?
If I kissed you
would you r
Between You and Me.I never believed you,
I only wanted to.
Lying back to back
I was counting your breaths
to make sure your lack of
didn't leave you
Like a ghost
the fading memories of your touch
what I was trying to forget.
Oh, why did I give it up to you?
I know it's my fault.
My expectations were greater than
what you were willing to offer,
and I got scared.
I tried shutting you out,
to gather myself together
behind a shield of apathy,
but only ended up in
Your kiss never tasted as
as the last time
I made love to you...
Fallen...I cannot find the words...
They're drowning in my thoughts...
Choking on the air...
And some how I found myself...
Taking a Chance at Love(girl)
Love only ever comes true in works of fiction.
The words try to cover relationships friction.
I don't believe in such tall fairy tales.
They are destined to epically fail.
Growing up I saw my parent's relationship fall apart
And it broke my heart..But I knew it wasn't like that from the start
Although it started beautiful like a fairy tale
It shattered. I guess Love is just that frail
My prince charming fell off his horse.
Now I am left with thoughts of remorse.
He went off to save another damsel in destress.
What will I do with this never used prom dress?
I stumbled on a girl who seems to have been dumped on her prom
She was sitting alone...holding her phone on her palm
Realized her date wasn't coming ..started feeling so dumb
I thought I'd approach her, since her boy wouldn't come
I look up and see him walking towards me.
Could it be my fairly tale is meant to be?
He askes me "would you like do dance?"
I say "yes" and take love's chance.
I don't understand honey...What?
I don't know what you're talking about honey
When you go on and on about all the bad shit you see
Every word you speak is leaking
leaking of sorrow
leaking of pain
I don't see it like that hun'
'Cause all I see is the good times we had
I see your smiling face
'cause you beat me in this game too
I hear your laughter
and teasing words
as I'm being all silly again
I feel your arms around me
as you pull me closer
in a hug to make me feel safe again
'cause you've scared me with that spider-thing again
All I see is smiling faces and sparkle-eyes
All I hear is a laughing couple sharing the secret of love
All I feel is butterflies in the sky and the touch of your hand on mine
So when you speak of this so called "misery"
of all this pain
that you've carried for far too long
It breaks my heart you see
'cause I thought you were happy, too
Daddy, Please Daddy....Daddy, don't lie to me, I wanna know
Where is she hiding, and why did she go?
Daddy, don't lie to me, please, pretty please
It's like I can hear her voice within the breeze.
Daddy, don't lie to me, where did she run?
Daddy, I know all the things you have done.
Daddy, don't lie to me, I've seen her scars
Hidden from me like the faraway stars.
Daddy, don't tell me, I don't wanna hear
I'm hoping these thoughts are just worries, just fears.
Daddy, don't tell me, I can't stand the facts
I just wanna think this is some silly act.
Daddy, I love you, you know this is true
But honestly, why do you do what you do?
Daddy, I saw you when you pushed her down
She screamed and she cried, and you made not a sound.
Daddy, I saw you when you stabbed her back
She fell to the floor and again, you attacked.
Daddy, I saw when you stole her goodbyes
And Daddy, I saw when you silenced her cries.
Daddy, don't lie to me, I know the truth...
You hurt her, you killed her, you've darkened my youth.
Daddy, don't hu
My secretLet me tell you a secret
So listen carefully...
if you take my hand
but let me lead
If you would just trust me
when I say I'm not like them
If you show me mercy
by wiping the tears of my cheeks when I'm sad
If you let me feel home, safe and protected
just hug me tight and never let go
If you would just have faith in me
Then I promise you one thing
I promise you will never ever have to be alone again
I promise you that love...
MistakeIf only I had known that
This is what we'd become.
If I could go back,
Change what I've done.
You should know that I would.
Just look at what I've done now.
Everything is so broken.
If only I just know how,
Take back what I've spoken,
I would if I could.
But now it's too late,
The damage is done.
I took all the hate.
I want to go back to one.
Do I have to go away
Just because of one mistake?
Why couldn't it stay?
Was so much at stake?
I'm tired of pretending
There's no use of it now.
Is this really the ending?
Guess I regret it somehow.
Don't we all stumble?
Don't we all feel small?
Don't we all have trouble feeling humble?
Don't we all trip and fall?
But I don't understand
Why this thing has to be.
All that I know is the blame is on me.
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